i’ve always been a paranoid guy. i get nervous when someone walks behind me in a quiet street, i always check my pockets for my mobile, wallet and keys whenever i get on/off any form of transport and in/out of any places, i have a buffer amount in my bank account in case anything happens and i always almost expect a dead body in my apartment block’s elevator whenever the door opens.

so i’ve been thinking of ways that i will die. not in a sadistic suicidal way, but actual ways that i think i might die. putting aside stuff like old age and health, the first in the list is definitely death by electrocution. i’m not surprised to see my body sizzle up in flames since i have this extremely bad habit of switching on and off powerpoints with my erm…toes. and i have this weird fascination with electricity, you should see my powerpoints! if it’s not electrocution, i’ll probably be strangled by wire cables.

car accidents, i think that’s pretty much a given seeing how often i take cabs and how aggressive these cab drivers are. comfort needs to provide anger management workshops for its drivers. plane crashes. although i’ve read that it’s statistically harder to die in a plane crash than say, a car accident. but – i’m not kidding here – whenever the plane takes off, i’m pretty much prepared for the worst. what else can you do when a plane goes crashing down anyway?

so there you go, three ways that i’ll probably gonna die. with my luck, i’ll probably suffer a electric shock while my plane crashes down and i get hit by car when i land. happily ever after.

i thought it will be nice to start off a blog with a list of things to do. in the future, maybe 3-5 years from now, i’ll be able to look at this first entry and compare. that being said, this blog had a few false starts, i could never decide what to write and how to write it. whenever i want to type something, my fingers seem reluctant to move. so for simplicity’s sake, i’ll write up a list of things to do and perhaps the words will flow better from there.

1. participate in a  marathon. any marathon. ok, actually i took part in two marathons when i was serving the nation – the half army marathon – but i didn’t get any real sense of achievement. it was compulsory and i had to drag my sorry sleepy ass for it. so in my list of things to do, i will want to take part in an actual marathon. i’ll even train for it.
2. take a hot air balloon ride. since i don’t see myself tying a billion helium balloons to my apartment block, i guess the alternative will be taking a hot air balloon ride. i’m mostly nervous about heights. even to this day, taking off in an airplane makes me nervous. which is why i don’t take thrill rides in amusement parks.
3. have a ‘lost’ marathon. this one might be the easiest to accomplish among all the others, but to actually find the time and the mood to sit in front of my computer and catch 5 (or is it 6?) seasons of lost would be a feat. i love the cast, i love the mythology and i love the suspense. but there are just too much to absorb – the flashbacks and flash-forwards – and that makes it hard to start from scratch again.
4. picking up a sports. well, like it’s ever gonna happen. but i would love to pick up tennis again. i like the impact of the racket against the ball. and i think i would look pretty smart in a tennis getup.
5. writing a book. that is what i’m basing this blog on. to chronicle my attempts at writing a book. and if i ever do write one, ‘this is not for the sober’ would be the title for it. i’m greatly inspired by the likes of jonathan tropper (my favourite writer for now), neil gaiman (i worship him and Dream), douglas coupland and nick hornby. i used to love chuck palahniuk but i didn’t quite get his latest works.

not really an exhaustive list of things to do. but given my procrastinating nature, i would love to see in 3-5 years’ time (hopefully i’m still alive and well) that i have accomplished half, if not all of what i’ve stated.